February 26, 2010

Blood work

Just thought I'd keep you all updated...

I got my blood work results back and they tested my thyroid and prolactin.  Everything is normal... which is good.  A part of me, though, keeps hoping that they'll eventually find whatever that thing is that is NOT normal - so they can fix it and move on. :-)  If only it were that easy.  There is more blood work to be done, but that requires that they do it at certain times during my cycle so it has to wait til next month.

So life goes on.

February 25, 2010

GatheringGr.org

Take a minute and check out GatheringGr.org... Gathering Grand Rapids is a prayer movement uniting the churches in Grand Rapids and the surrounding cities. What an awesome group of people.



February 21, 2010

Spuring one another on..

Hebrews 10:23-25
23Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. 25Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
This has been on my heart for the past week or two.  Just feeling that I need to be intentional about what this verse says... "spur one another on... meeting together... encourage one another".  I feel like this is something that, for me, is so easy to let stay in the background of my relationships.  I don't know why that is - probably because sometimes it is uncomfortable to go there and to be honest.  But when I spend time with friends, we rarely intentionally challenge each other spiritually or ask each other what we can be praying for each other.  I guess this is my challenge to myself to "go there"... to seek to be an encouragement and ask in what ways I can be praying for them... and to actually daily PRAY.  I do pray for my friends, but I just have this sense lately that if these people are truly important in my life - what more loving thing can I do than to lift them up in prayer and to have an honest relationship where we can encourage each other in our walk in Christ?  Just some thoughts I am having lately.

That being said... I just want those of you who read this blog and who are praying for us to know that I GREATLY appreciate your friendship and prayers. :-)  It means more to me than I can say!  Please feel free to leave comments of how I can be praying for you.  Or send me an email... whatever.  But I just feel like we need to start the conversation and use our friendship as a way to intentionally spur one another on toward Christ!

As for updates... I am right now waiting for the results of my blood test which will check my thyroid and hormone levels.  I hope to have an answer this week. :-)  I'm still feeling very at peace with this process and God has given me patience (at least today) to trust his timing.  February has been a difficult month because I have been sick literally since Feb 1.  I am finally able to function, but I am not 100% yet.  But this has forced me to take a break and to not really think about getting pregnant this month.  It has been kind of a needed relief.  I am eager to get healthy again, though.  I think I have gone through 4 boxes of tissues in the past 2 days.  Ugh.

February 9, 2010

Results

I got a call from my doctor today and they already have the results of J's analysis yesterday.  Everything looks good!!  She said he is in the "normal" range for fertility.  So this is great news!  We just need to wait for me to get my lab results and then next cycle I'll start the clomid.  Yay!

February 8, 2010

Blah.

Sickness is never fun... sickness that messes with your temperature when you are trying to get pregnant and your BBT is the only way you can tell if you ovulate is definitely not fun.  But maybe my body is forcing me to take a break...

It is kind of nice to honestly not know if I am ovulating or not right this second... we're still trying every other day, but for the past week I have either had a fever (boo) or have had trouble sleeping, which makes my temps unreliable.  I am okay with that.  I just got a call from my doctor that they want to do some bloodwork to test my thyroid and some other hormone levels.  I guess another step in the right direction.

Also I dropped off the semen analysis this morning (fun fun!!)... so I should hopefully have results on that this week.

In the meantime... I feel like I am swallowing needles and I am going to REST and drink lots of tea. :-)

February 4, 2010

Step Two

Obviously, when you are trying to conceive, I think it is impossible to ignore all the babies and pregnant women around you.  It seems like it is everywhere... and it is hard to not look at them and feel that deep desire to have a child of your own.  Lately, I see these pregnant women and babies and find myself wondering how they got there.  I think the old joke of "where babies come from" is a lot more real to me... people laugh saying someone got "knocked up"... thinking they got pregnant the traditional way by just doing it and *poof* they are pregnant.  I now know that for a lot of people that isn't the case... and I find myself wondering what their story is.  How did they long for that child and spend months or years waiting to see those two pink little lines confirming their dreams had come true?  And for many people, it isn't "doing the deed" at all that got them there... in many cases, it was rounds of medication, IUI, IVF, etc.  I just wonder what people's stories are.  I am happy to embrace my story... as long or as short as it ends up being, because it is my story and I know that I am not the author... God is.  And I can trust in that.

We have our semen analysis scheduled for Monday.  J is being such a trooper... obviously it is NOT fun for him, but he continually assures me that he is 100% on board to do what we need to do to make this happen.  I am just praying that it will be a simple answer... that J's swimmers will be just fine and one round of clomid to adjust my cycle and my hormones to be able to sustain a pregnancy will be all that we need.  It gets a lot more expensive after that and we aren't prepared at this point to spend $10,000 on IVF.  Of course that is like Step 8 and we are on Step 2... but still.  I am a planner and I just want to prepare myself for this to be a potentially long journey.  Anyway... luckily with this semen analysis this is something that can be done at home :-) and I can take the sample to the fertility clinic.  No shady rooms with shady magazines or anything like that... gosh no.  Thank goodness it isn't like the movies. :-)  J is much more comfortable with it this way.

My doctor told me a story of a family who did the semen analysis (are you sick of hearing me say that?) and found that the husband had literally ZERO count.  There are things (expensive things?) they can do to try to increase it, but it doesn't always work... and it is usually by a very small percentage.  Well, a small percentage of ZERO is still ZERO (I know my math)... and this family chose to just stop right there.  They were going to adopt.  I kind of feel like I would do the same thing.  J and I already agreed that we aren't going to go multiple rounds of treatment and stress... really just one round of IVF (or however many embryo's there are) and call it good.  If no luck - we are adopting.  We feel very compelled and called to adopt anyway.  We think we'd like to have 2 of our own and adopt 2 (of course these are my plans... we'll see what God has in store).

As always... thanks for your prayers!!

February 2, 2010

Trip to the doctor...

Well today I had my doctors appointment.  I brought my charts with me and got a chance to just talk about my concerns and get feedback.  My doctor was really on the same page as me.  She had concerns with my cycles being as long as they are and also with the fact that I bleed for up to 15 days surrounding my period.  Looking at just my temps, she isn't concerned about my luteal phase, but because of the spotting she said I may have luteal phase defect.  Sooo... she is thinking that my best bet may be to use clomid.  Clomid helps women who ovulate irregularly to have more regular cycles.  It also helps to balance your hormones if there is an imbalance (hence the bleeding).  We are already past the starting point since I have been charting for 6 months... I know that I DO ovulate... but that some cycles it isn't until cycle day 52 (ugh.)... so this should help with that.  My doctor said normally they wait a year before doing any kind of this treatment, but because of my cycle lengths and bleeding, she feels confident this will help me a great deal.

So the next step before clomid is to get a semen analysis.  40% of all infertility is male factor and we need to understand that before I start on any drugs.  If it turns out that J doesn't have good swimmers :-( then they may say it isn't worth doing clomid at all and would jump to IUI or something of that nature... saving us time and $$.  So we'll see.  We're doing the semen analysis within the next 2 weeks and I should have answers 3-5 days after that.  I'm anxious for some answers.

A friend of a friend has been trying for a couple months longer than me and had a miscarriage at about 6 months of trying.  Her doctor found a hormonal imbalance and put her on clomid and she conceived her first cycle... not that this will happen for me, but I am hopeful. 

I don't feel anxious... I feel good about this decision, but the unknown is always scary.  Thanks for the prayers... they are working. :-)

PRAYER REQUESTS:
- wisdom for the doctors and for us... that we would get clear answers from the testing done and feel good about the course of action.
- that J and I would be on the same page... a semen anaylsis and clomid DO cost money... not near what IVF would (it is really only maybe $200 if insurance doesn't cover anything... which I am thinking they will)... but J and I need to be on the same page and for J, money is always a factor and I just pray that God provides as we head down this road.
- PEACE... I have really felt your prayers on this one... no anxiety this month... I feel patient and at ease with this process.

Love you all!
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...